James Luden Mock

Happy birthday jimmy... Miss you to the moon and back. I remember me and Charles fighting over u in Chen class junior year haha. And them cigarettes we used to smoke. But it's been 16 months since I smoked. Crazy you would be 27 today and I would love to know the famous artist you would be today. Can't imagine the art you create!!!

Your a fleeting memory anymore...One that always crushes me. Another birthday went by. I'm still left with so many questions from that night. I don't think my heart will ever know peace. I wish the world could see you now for all the kindness and irrational thoughts and things you did and would be doing. I love you 

Hi Jimmy,
 I wanted to write another memory because I have been thinking about you alot lately. My daughter whom has never met you pointed at your memorial card and said your name the other day! I am so thankful that you visit. i think about the good times and how generous and caring you were to get me through the hard times. I miss you terribly but I know that some day we will meet again and it will be amazing! I wish you could make phone calls from heaven lol. Its raining here today...I know how much you loved the rain  :). My daughter Nika loves it too. She is so full of energy and life like you are! Can never get her to sit still for long. And she loves to draw  :) But I guess you already know all this. I love you. talk to you later.
 ~love always lisa and family

Jimmy it's getting close to another year without you and let me tell you it's not easy and i don't think that it ever will be but i'll never forget all you done for me and all the time's you we're there for me i just still can't believe you are not here with us anymore there isn't a day that goes by that i don't think about you or miss you because god only know's the hurt i'm holding inside but i did go buy those cigarette's we always bought just to smoke the green one for you:] and i'm getting you some flowers..i just really miss you and i know your always with me in spirit so thanks for still watching out for me, see you on the other side when my time comes. rest east Jimmy. Love you.

Jimmy,

 

I miss going to the shipwreck every year always playing hide and seek...lol. Then when I'd find you you would scream "sis" and I'd turn and run and jump in your arms! :) I remember when you'd sit at lunch and draw your heart away...and you were so great at it...it amazed me at how creative and beautiful your drawings would be when you finished...I miss seeing you and seeing your smile and hearing that spongebob laugh...and by the way nobody that I've met to this day can't do it like you and prolly never will...you helped me with so much and for that I'm so grateful. I couldn't thank you enough. Thank you for being with me when I was in a coma...I know you were there...I heard you talking to me telling me everything would be ok...I ended up in a wheelchair told that i'd be parylized from the waist down...four to five months went by with no change...but something inside told me not to settle because that's not what I wanted...If I hadn't of known you then I wouldn't have gotten the courage I had to teach myself how to walk all over again. Thanks Jimmy...I'm married now...you were suppose to walk me down the isle and I wish so bad you could have been there...I know that you still were because that day I felt you there...it was wierd but I know you were there. Thank you....You were always loved helping people and you always gave great advice. Just seeing the determination and drive in you, it made me want that too...You were and always will be loved and cherished by many...I miss you every day and every day I ask why God took someone so amazing and so good from this world and why he couldn't have taken a rapist or murderer...I think it's because God seen that because you are such an amazing person and have a heart of gold he said that he wanted you in Heaven with him where you could help him in doing heavenly things. I can picture you up there drawing for God and all of Heaven...you really deserve to be in Paradise Jimmy....I can't wait to see you again Big Bro...instead of jumping in your arms maybe this time I'll just fly...I love you and miss you always!

 

Love Always and Forever,

Lisa aka lil sis

jimmy when you were in mercer you were one of the coolest kids i ever met and i cant believe that your gone but you no what you will always be with me you will always be with all of us i love you kid i miss you

i remember when i was walking in the hall to go to the bathroom and jimmy came around the corner and grabed me and tryed to pull me into the bathroom with him but a tearche came and he got in truble

wow i miss Ghost.

i know hes with me right now. watchin my every move.

making sure im doin everything rite. i remember i came home from school one day and i saw you in my house.

i was like who is the hot creepy kid. You were dressed in all black. i went to play ZELDA in my brothers room and you and my cuz bobby came back there and started playing. i could never beat the game. and for some stupid reason i thought you couldn't either..lol here you beat every part. we would fight like theres no tomorrow. it was fun. i had the best time ever. I MISS YOU JIMMY!! ♥♥tara

 

wow i miss you jimmy.

i never really knew jimmy very much until my sisters mom figured out who her real sister was. And so of course like i had to start meeting the family and everything. Like i had meant him a couple times for a couple seconds. But i think the first time i really hung out wit him like like 3 or 4 years ago when like the whole family went to cedar point. wow that day was so much fun really. lol. i had a blast. Where we were staying at, had a swimming pool and we spent such a long time in the pool...he kept like throwing me into the water and stuff. After that we would hang out every once in awhile...Than of course there was Audrey and Chris's Wedding and wedding reception...that was an interesting time lol...thats when we become like cuzzins ha. Wow i still remember all the time we would party out at Ramseys just last year when he still had his crazyy blue hair lol. i cant believe his birthday just passed ..its pretty horrible cuz that made i just wanted to cry but i couldnt cuz id be ruining my lil sisters birthday and my dads birthday..all three on the same day. It really doesnt truthfully seem like a year.

Love ya buddy.

Rest in Peace 

Things seem like they arent getting easier. It still hurts everyday but I know he's watching over me and making sure I'm ok. He was and always will be my best friend. I wouldnt be where I am today without him. I love him so much. He will have my heart forever.  There isnt a day that goes by that I dont think about him. He touched me in so many ways. He made me see that things arent always so bad. I want him back so badly but I know that no matter what, he will always be there, holding my hand and making sure I'm ok and doing my best at everything. Sometimes I lay in bed and it feels like he's right there next to me, watching over me. I love you my angel, always... <3

I miss my bestfriend. :[

Jimmy was  the bestfriend anyone could ask for and i still miss him so much i cant believe he is  really gone it still doesnt seem real to me, i know he is  in a better place though, and yesterday was his birthday and i cried manily allday and i remembered all our memories and everything, especially when he wore my tinkerbell shorts and the time when he told me to never regret and never forget anything that once made me happy i always remember him telling me that.

i really cant say how much i miss him, he was the greatest person i knew he had the most giving caring heart and nothing and noone could bring him down and he taught me to be that way and im glad he did because without him here its hard but i always remember everything he has taught me.

He deffinatly had a way with people and no matter who the person was if he knew them he touched them in some kind of way, he could make any smile if he wanted to, i just really miss having him around. :[

R.I.P JIMMY :[

I miss my brother.

I remember he called my mom an old lady when she was on our porch and he was on the road she had him down on the ground near the signs building lol he didnt know my mom could move that fast.

its getting lonely lately. i miss him coming up and playing the xbox with me and just standing in the alley's before school talking about the weekend and smoking the same ciggs before continuing our walk to school. we would wait for mike, frank and alot of other kids.  at times its gotten so hard to be home anymore id beg to come back to pittsburgh. i miss him so much. i rarely talk to anyone anymore and at times i wonder how dad was doing. how momma was doing with my lil sister catie. at times i wish they would just drop a call to tell me they are alright.

R.I.P. Jimmy hopefully i will see you again soon and we can finish what we started and thats being friends for life.(side not for you bro i got them smokes we used to smoke in the alley)

Here it is- Easter again and Jimmy's birthday approaches. It is SO hard to get through this time now- to know that last year was the last birthday we would spend together. We celebrated it together- Jimmy, Catie, Uncle John, and I- the April birthday. Of course, Grammy insisted that everyone color "at least one" egg. Well, of course that just gets things started. But it ends up so much fun- the greatest of family traditions.

 

At this time last year, Jimmy's hair was a bluish color - Catie would call it "burple". Jimmy would have preferred to be in Vegas at a tatto show with Nick, but we are so greatful that he stayed home and spent the time with us.

 

There was the dinner at Eat'nPark we took up two booths and ended with a food fight- as innocent children looked on and commented to parents about our shocking behavior. I am so glad we had those laughs and that time together.

 

This year will be more solemn as we remember and laugh less, but I hope the memories at least make us smile a little.

 

Love always!

Ronda

Jimmy was the greatest kind of person in the world, he knew how to  make a person smile, he forgave quickly and loved long, he didnt deserve what happened to him and I know that everyone who knew him learned something from him. I learned how to just say screw it and do what I wanted- we all know thats what he would do. Jimmy had no clue what he was going to do with his life but he knew he wanted to be himself- no  matter what! I tried so many times to get Jimmy to wear blue jeans and pimp clothes but no matter how hard I tried he still went back to his black clothes and eyeliner.

Our last Christmas together, Jimmy was so proud to get Jada a little pig that oinked and jumped and he spent the entire day at the mall looking for that perfect gift for her, and the perfect gift for his love, Kayla. I wanted to kill him for taking so long, but now I am so happy that he got those special toys for his girls. 

He would have done anything for anyone that he possibly could. The last day we spent together, we shopped that day for the perfect shirt for his dad, and he said his dad was NOT wearing the wrong shirt to the wedding they were attending because it was not appropriate. He did some great things that day and I know that we will never forget that day, but I hope that someday we can all thing of it and smile- knowing that he loved us enough to have touched our lives like he did. 

Thats all for now- it's getting hard to see the screen... lol

Although I miss seeing Jimmy, I know he is with me, or me and Jada would have been hurt last week. I know he was there because as we went flying off the road, the only thing in my car that didnt go flying was the CD he got me for Christmas last year, and truthfully we should have been hurt, but he sat with us through it. Thank you Jimmy for being our guardian angel.