James Luden Mock

this is 1 of ghosts best friends from wms, not very many days have gone by that i havent thought of this guy. i am sitting here now in AIT, (advanced individual training). which is the army yes i went and joined it i told him long ago that i always knew id end up joining it and he asked wen and i never really was sure but i took the jump. haha havin some fun. might be getting deployed in february. my thoughts area always with his family and his friends that i never had the pleasure of meeting. for the short time that i knew him he was an amazing person. he was alot like me in so many ways it hit me like a ton a bricks wen i met him and had those first few words of an introduction that adam gave us...he said as i walked into the room. "O hey Ghost this is my bro Baby Jesus is his name that we have been calling him cuz of his crazy ass hair. his real names Jordan but Baby Jesus is way better." ghost continues on to say to me yo wassup bro my names James and they call me Ghost." and right then i knew some fun shit was gonna happen. and it did lots of nights of xbox with him and jus chillin watchin tv and havin the best conversations with him and adam many a nights. its taken me this much time to be able to come back to this site with out crying, not being selfish sayin he should b here with his friends and fam and living life the way he wanted to live it. going to college meeting a woman and  havin kids some day that way he can raise em 2 b just like him to continue on making more awesome human beings as him. i still have dreams were hes still alive and its in present day and we are hanging out...but then i wake up..shortly after i realize its a dream and he fades away. i will always consider him my lil brother with the way we connected that first day we met and the days after how everything seemed to click. all my close friends are my lil brothers. id do nething for them. and i would have done nething for him help him out in any sort of way. well time for my bed and its only 10:30 haha gnight ghosts friends and fam.

I can only imagine how this year has been for all of you.  I just want you to know that you're not alone in grieving the loss of Jimmy.  He was one of a kind, loving, lively, there is nobody who could ever compare to him.  You guys are so very amazing and are always in my thoughts when I remember Jimmy.  I'm here no matter what!

it sucks he is gone stay strong for him........

i hope you are staying strong...

i am so sorry for your loss i hope that you are staying strong..